I don't have a lot of money left but I've done so many nice things for so many people the last two weeks. it feels amazing. I even was okay with not working out for two days straight just to help a friend. that's such progress for me

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I think I'm getting old. or I've always been this way. but I hate large groups of people, I hate parties, I hate bars. every time I think "no I'm gonna love it!" but I don't. I don't see the appeal in hanging out with a a bunch of people I don't know, dressed up and uncomfortable, and being awkward. I just want to watch movies.. or craft. and I wish that made me different rather than weird. but that's how I feel: weird. it's not that I don't like to do things: I do! when I went hiking, horse back riding, and shopping, it was the best day! or when I took a bus to dc with no money to just walk around. bike rides! long walks. baking. I just feel like it's not that I'm a grandma that hates drinking and the party scene, I just like other stuff instead. but that usually leaves me by myself.. as I wrote this in the corner of a party in kent.

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I've been sitting on a bench on campus for an hour listening to all my indie favorites and enjoying the weather. it's so peaceful. I wish I could trap this moment in a jar.

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